It is a process, slowly you move ahead after a few starts, a few steps back, but in time the steps forward begin to outnumber those that take you back. It can be a roller coaster of a ride but in as you begin to heal and start to feel emotions and an improved perception of yourself, it makes you want more. So don't give up, vent and never be ashamed to feel sad, it is part of healing facing the horrible deeds that were done. Good luck