Thanks Aksnowyowl... As I said in another post, you are my role model!
I feel really good again today. Made a BIG decision the day before yesterday that will put me in a place where I am spending more time on my own pursuits, and instead of my kids and H being stressed or needy about me not being around as much, they all congratulated me for doing this for myself!! You know you have done your job right as a parent when you see your kids changing from NEEDING you the time to just enjoying you when you can give them your time. Independence, self-sufficiency, self-esteem is, imo, the most important thing you can teach your kids! Anyway, life is getting smoother. I hate to break this bubble, but I think it is important for myself to admit that I am sort of waiting for it to go to hell in a hand basket again. Life is an ebb and flow though so I will have to remind myself then that we got here once and will find our way back and further even if we stumble along the way.