Those books are available at the larger bookstores and bookstore chains. They are also available online and may be less expensive if purchased that way.

Another option would be your library, though experience tells me there are usually only a few copies and they are not only "out" but usually late to be returned.

If you have a Kindle, or if you download the Kindle Reader, you can purchase the digital format and download the book immediately.

When you are feeling like you are on the verge of a break down, or that the anxiety/ rage/ etc. are such that you feel you are about to lose it, wander into chat. Though it isn't always populated the moment you get there, guys are wandering into the lounge all day. Someone will be along so you can talk and get real-time support. If, or when, you have privacy, there are hotlines you can call for support.

Acceptance on someone else's terms is worse than rejection.