Northern. You are making awesome progress even though it may not feel that way. I'm so happy you are choosing to pursue your needs and not sacrifice yourself to the abuse demon. Keep moving onward and upward your H has a lot to figure out but has chosen to do it wothout you at this time. The best thing to do in my opinion is pursue your own health love and vitality for life. When we let our light shine when give others permission to do the same. I don't want to pretend that I. Don't realize how painful this must be for you I. Can relate to a lot of your story and somedays it feels like hell but I have learned that the times in my life when I grew the most as a person were the hard ones the ones that stretched me the ones were I had to work hard at it. You sound like a really loving awesome lady and I'm sure that no matter what you will find peace again in the future thanks and keep sharing
Everything comes from within