i had a blond teddy bear that i brought to our new "home" when mom married the step-dad. i have nev er seen another one quite like it. he threw it away. i remembered that when she rubbed the inside of the monkey's ears and said the boy used to do that. i did that too. WTF! here i am sitting in my office crying over a stuffed animal that i lost when i was 5 1/2.

"My experience has shown me that I all too often tend to deny that which lies behind, but as I still believe, that which is denied cannot be healed." Brennan Manning, "All is Grace - A Ragamuffin Memoir"