WOW........ I didnt realize what Body Memories meant...

If im around someone that smells a certain way my mind will put me back to the abuse.
If my back or rear are touched my back arches I hold my breath and im taken back.
If I hear a mans voice in a certain tone my body shutters and im taken back.
If someone whispers in my ear im taken back.

I remember the feel of his touch his smell him inside me and the weight of his body and the sound of his voice. my body reacts to all these things.
unfortunately and I hate to even mention this..... But these things take me to a very sexual place mentaly.... this is why I have always questioned my sexuality. A part of my confusion.

"Those are not your sins" A wise man