Whew. Northernflicker. You're in a tough spot. But you're doing the right thing. Keep going. Keep searching for peace, even if you can just grab it for a moment. Keep healing. You're strong. You can build the life you want and need. Thanks for sharing. Thanks for being here. You can suggest that your husband come here to read or share stories of his own life. He might be glad to know that he's not alone. He can be perfectly anonymous. I hope he does. Please tell him that my thoughts and prayers are with him.