Im in a complete state of 7$)$"$)!-$"$)$)$ right now... I dont know what to do, H has been so awesome working on stuff, we are getting on track and things are getting better.

What is bothering me is that we are finally after all these years engaging in sex, im so proud of h because he has walked a long hard road... We are now getting where he wants to try different positions,roles etc which is great!! He also wants to try oral. I am having the hardest time with this because that was done to him.
How do I even do that and not feel like his perpetrator??
I can't even think about it now, im not even sure what to think or say.. I was open to it, but then found out he had that happen.....please some advice.