I encourage you to take Older's advice NSH, keep talking. Wander through the forums and re-post your questions, preferably on at a time, break 'em up. Listen to the experience, reply to the thoughtful responses, and when you are told how wonderful you are, believe it. Yep, it is going to be difficult, but you can do it.

The answers are coming,
MaleSurvivor Moderator Emeritus 2012 - 2014