I don't know whether or not this progress, but it seemed the most appropriate place to post on the site.

Feeling pretty good right now. Not spectacular, but pretty good. I'm starting to understand why someone might find me attractive, and it makes me feel pretty good. However, I still have this habit of comparing myself to others, and always seeing them as being more attractive. Sort of envying their qualities while at the same time acknowledging my own good qualities. I guess I just want to get my true feelings, at least at the moment, out there.