It has been almost a year ago since I found out my sexual abuse has had an impact on me. My uncle and a nearby friend molested me for probably 1-2 years when I was 5 til I told my mom about it. I think more than that has happend to me.
A lot of my emotional wounds began during the end of Elementary and the worst during Middle School as I was called homosexual names just about everyday. Even when my "best-friend" betreyed me during a field trip, and I cried almost the entire time from the name calling and as everyone was messing with me.
Now during High School, i'm left alone and I don't know were to go. I know I can't trust anyone. I'm just lost with myself. I'm confused with my sexuality. I also don't have any good or close friends at school now days. I don't have anyone to talk to, just to myself. Then all of the sudden some other memories came from the past.
I just can't take it. Why does it have to be me? Why can't I take off my shirt in front of other people? Why am I shy? Why do I have alot of anger? Why do I hear the homosexual names through my head from the past? I just wish I had someone.
Does anyone understand me? I know there must be some hope in the future. I'm only 17 years old.