Sounds to me like your love for each other, even expressed as just friends, is rising out of the ashes already. I feel for you northern. There have been so many times when I have questioned my marriage because physical intimacy has been difficult for almost 8 years when our last child was conceived. I have accepted that we may never live as more than best friends and this has been a hard thing to accept, but it is still better than losing my best friend altogether.

I hope your day together on the boat is wonderful. I hope you find an easy place to just be together as people. I know I have had to remind myself at times to stop defining all our interactions by his csa. These experiences have effected him profoundly, but do not define him or define us. Sometimes I have to look for and grasp those special moments when we can truly just be together, quiet and comfortable. Those moments are among the most intimate we have ever had.

Enjoy the pike!
I am not your rolling wheels, I am the highway
I am not your carpet ride, I am the sky
- Audioslave