I was abused by my older sister through control. The family I grew up in on the surface was very normal, but my mom was an alcholic (now recovering) and my father stopped drinking, but I don't think he realized he was an alcoholic.

I'm the youngest of three. My brother, the oldest, physically abused me, but not sexually. I've recently talked to my therapist about that and he says I probably suffer from some PTSD over that.

My sister, who may have been abused herself, abused me when I was just entering puberty. There was no intercourse, but there was simulated intercourse, in that she had me lie on top of her clothed and "dry hump."

She also made me undress to show her my puberty progress.

After reading others' stories, and the horrible experiences they have had, I feel like mine isn't so terrible. But why do I feel like shit?

I have problems with control; others controlling me. I'm sad and angry and I don't know how to go forward.

I just want to be me.