As Mark commented, congratulations on disclosing the turmoil inside you! You did not mention if you told her about the sexual abuse, did you? Disclosure helps a supporter know that there is a struggle, and that there is a place for them in that battle.
There is a condition among CSA survivors known as Same Sex Attraction, or SSA. Some have concluded it is very much apart of their life and other's conclude it is something that needs therapy to explore and come to a conclusion. You will journey through this process, Alden. Meanwhile, know that whatever happens, you will survive.
Please keep sharing, posting and recovering. Oh.., and get some sleep.
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