well, thanks CR it's nice to share with you. I feel a little funny hearing "nice to meet you" after outlining a lifetime of personal failures. And that's my point with this reply.
I made these mistakes myself. I don't blame the way life turned out for me on my drug use or alcohol abuse. As a matter of fact I still have a beer on a hot day after mowing the lawn. I have nothing against cannabis and if I need it again one day I'll take it.
So, for you I'd suggest an "if it ain't broke don't fix it" approach. Sounds like you're a relatively balanced person and cannabis is serving an important function in your life. As you go deeper into this new phase of life maybe you reduce the frequency that you take it just to see how you do. I think it's great that you're questioning yourself on this topic. But I'm not sure if it's time to make a sudden change unless you feel like your cannabis intake is holding you back from other opportunities in life.
Finding humor in the heartbreak