Hey man,
good to chat with you some. I applaud you for taking the step and reaching out to this community of others who can offer support and encouragement as needed, and also offering from yourself the same.

Thank you for sharing, and I hope you experience a world of healing in your life from your pain...

-Love is love when it is free; love is love when others don't feed on you as a "need". If we reach one person with betterment, and in turn that one reaches another, what power we have to change the world."