This is my first time posting here, and I am somewhat nervous and apprehensive. As a kid, I was sexually molested once by a janitor, and several times by a school administrator. I also survived other types of abuse at home, including physical, emotional, and spiritual abuse. In some ways, there was sexual abuse at home with my dad's idea of what a "man" should be, and after my parents were divorced, my mom came onto me sexually. I have had a hard time holding a job. At my current job, I fell on some ice in the parking lot in December. I filed worker's comp, and hired a lawyer. (Considering how things are turning out, that was a good idea.) Not only are they denying some of my back pay because they had "light duty" available. (Despite the fact that I was homebound and unable to get out of the house, much less go to work.) Also, there have been numerous threats of termination. I have actually been terminated twice, but I still show up at work, and I still get paid. On Wednesday, I got another written warning. (It's hard to take a written warning seriously when I've already been terminated twice.) However, my nerves are on edge, I have headaches, that on a scale of 1 to 10 rate about a 20. Sleeping is tough, especially with nightmares every night. (I honestly don't remember the last time I had a decent night of sleep.) I have been going to a therapist, but had to cancel my last appointment, since I thought I was terminated at that time. I have another appointment scheduled, but whether I make it or not depends on how many times I'm terminated between now and then. I'm lonely and scared. Being isolated for three months while stuck at home took a toll, too. It made me realize that I have no friends to speak of. If it hadn't been for my neighbors, I don't know how I would have survived, considering I couldn't even get out to get food. Every day, I have another crisis (or 2 or 3 or usually 20 or 30) to face, and it really gets to me after a while. I just needed to post. Thanks.