Hello as for now I am gonig by Jay, Im 37 yrs old and have been married for 17 years now. These last few weeks have been rough for me seems many issues that I have been able to supress for 25 years keep boiling to the surface.I am a strong person and have never fallen apart infront of my wife until yesterday. I sat down and told her a story very similar to the hundreds ive read in these forums. She was compassionate and loving and comforted me. Im making these first few steps to help me get controll of my feelings again. I thank you all for sharing your stories. I had in the past refered to these forums as pitty parties or crybaby posts not understanding that it cant be held in forever. Suck it up has always been my mantra. A very unrealistic point of view. So again I say thank you.
"Those are not your sins" A wise man