Reading this post all I can say is WOW, every person should be love and need by another person. I have two great kids and love doing things with them, I have love deeply and know intimacy, this year a two year relationship end for me I love her more then anyone I have before, I have talk to my therapist about this and tied it back to the issues I have from the abuse, for me I am going to keep trying to find the right person. To connect with and that will accept all of me. The ex GF and I are still talking, I don't think anything will happen, but I rather try then sit on the side lines.
Anything and all things are possible when you understand the feelings coming from you heart

Courage, honor, respect = strength!!!!