Hey man, I can completely relate to almost everything here.
Justaname, I am 28 going on 29 and I'm right where you are. I am a survivor of female abuse, and until I was twenty, could not at all imagine myself with a girl.
Then, it happened. I met a girl who reminded me of Donna Reed in It's a Wonderful Life (Jimmy Stewart's wife) and I liked her. ALOT. It didn't ever turn into anything, but ever since then, I've tried my hardest to find a girl like that. Luckily, there are some really sweet, friendly, fun, cute dainty girls like that, but they are rare, and they have rarely ever liked me back haha. Nowadays, most women are aggressive, dominant, and quite frankly, catty and annoying. I should've been born in the 1930's.
"Life is for living, we all know...but I don't want to live it alone"-Chris Martin (Coldplay)