Thanks Luke. Your reply gave me a lot of comfort and confidence I'm on the right path. It's been a struggle. My wife and twenty-something children are having a terrible time reconciling my past with my behaviours, and our married friends have all but wiped me out of their lives for being an adulterer, liar and other inappropriate behaviours. Yet having come to a watershed realization of my actions and the triggers, and being well into recovery, their attitudes have made it both more difficult to deal with, especially the shunning by my kids. What they think doesn't matter, and their lack of understanding and compassion may hurt, but I see going through this journey without them as part of the challenge of recovery and achieving more normalcy. I know I will have to work on this forever, but i also am stronger, happier and to deal with everyday issues.