I relate to your post. I was an expressive kid involved in the arts and I stopped doing it, too. It cut off a HUGE part of me. I did cut it off because I was afraid of being diminished for doing it and also I didn't want any attention on me so that I could avoid people finding out what secrets were running my life. I wanted to avoid any and all scrutiny so I did only what I needed to in order to avoid prying eyes.

You picking up your art again is inspiring to me and others, which is great. Glad you wrote about it.
And more, much more, the heart may feel,
Than the pen may write or the lip reveal.
Winthrop Mackworth Praed