Many of you guys know that I was having a well known CSA Lawyer represent me in a case against my perp and the Boy Scouts. There was a 90 day investigatory period where the Lawyer looked into my case and made a determination as to rather he should file a lawsuit on my behalf or not. I just heard from him today.

The Lawyer told me he has looked into every possible angle for the case and he says due to Colorado having some of the worst statute-of-limitations laws, he doesn't think he can win for me. Apparently the Catholic Church heavily lobbied the legislature here and got the laws changed several years back. As he says, there just won't be any justice for me in this life.

All this is little consolation, because my abuse has left me with so many psychological problems that I have never been able to hold down much of a job, let alone get ahead in life. I've had a problem with chronic self-sabotage and I always end up quitting jobs uncontrollably. I had a lot of hope in getting a judgement so I could get some counseling/therapy, but as with my whole life, I got screwed and now I have to live with the consequences on my own. I just don't know how I will keep body, soul and spirit together without decent/permanent employment and no financial resources until the end of my life.

In a way I am relieved I don't have to go through the stress of a trial, but I am also depressed that I will have no compensation for what happened to me, ever. I guess one positive note is that I can freely speak about what happened to me in the Boy Scouts and I am not bound to any confidentially agreement due to a settlement. wink
"The sexual abuse and exploitation of children is one of the most vicious crimes conceivable, a violation of mankind's most basic duty to protect the innocent." ~James T. Walsh