There is no doubt that abuse affects our behaviour in later life. No doubt at all. Does it make anyone gay, or straight for that matter? Not likely, but it does screw up things real good. As time goes on, you may be able to learn that labels like gay and straight are indeed just labels. As as a cool guy I know here taught me, labels are for cans. It doesn't matter a pinch who you choose to love. All that matters is that the person consents and that they love you back. What it looks like, or is labeled as by others is their problem, not yours.
My name is Jim
WoR Mysthaven 2008, Level 2 WoR Alta 2009, Kirkridge 2010, 2011, Oprah 200 men