Though I know I am not gay I have always had some level of ssa but have never acted on it. I'm nearly 50 now and thinking I might be cheating myself out something I might enjoy if i don't try it at some point. Conversely, I'm afraid if I try it and it doesn't go well I will feel like shit. Now I'm reading that my ssa may be caused by my csa, but I do remember some ssa before all that happened. I guess I'm confused.
I guess what I'm curious about is for those that have gone "all the way" so to speak, what was it like for you?
Good, Bad, Meh...

I can't explain you would not understand
This is not how I am.
I have become comfortably numb.