[s][/s]hi my name is henri. I was sexually abused for about 10 years by a man.
I am stable and self sustaining I have my own apartment and a full-time job at safeway. problem is I don't have any friends. I have ptsd and everyday is hell
for me. it seems that the only time I have real problems with the same sex attraction is when I am triggered. it hurts like hell, the
s s a that is. My body memories always consist of this feeling in my butt and penis. Its like arousal all the f**kin time. I know i love girls. I just need to get out of this everything sexual mind set. I am trying to learn how to interact with other people and not think about sex. it's like that's all I see, it's like every single human interaction will always somehow end up sexual. Im sick and tired of this bull. I am an exceptional person,y, tall, handsome, and smart, and compassionate. I deserve better.

"In my life, I have seen,
People walk into the sea,
Just to find memories,
Plagued by constant misery,
Their eyes cast down,
Fixed upon the ground,
Their eyes cast down

I'll keep my eyes fixed on the sun"