I hear your pain--you have a lot of defenses, but admit that they exist and that you try to escape by getting high.
Alcohol was my BEST friend and only true love for a long time-then the day came I knew it would only pave the way to death, and that I needed help to face my life and my past. SO I asked for help and found people I could trust who were safe and offered a real way out. They were examples of people in recovery and healing.
I hope you can know that this is possible and it is better than isolating and numbing. I know that you have more to offer and more to live, I am here for you.
We have to take responsibility for what we're not responsible for.
�It doesn't matter where you've come from,
It matters where you go" Frank Turner