Back in December 2004, I was immersed in cybersex sin. Looking at really disturbing images, reading really BAD stories. I did not realize at the time that I was a sex addict (I sure know that now).
One night I was in Houston, TX on business. And (again) looked at very bad stuff on the Internet. The next morning was a day honoring Mary, and I was obliged to go to Mass. I found a local church that had a 6 AM mass, plenty of time after to get to my appointment.
My heart ached terribly due to the sin. I felt worthless and perverted. But I was in the right place for healing.
I prayed that God would heal my heart and give me peace.
When I received the Eucharist, I knelt down in the pew and suddenly this rush of joy came over me. Suddenly the pain was GONE and in its place was JOY. I cried and Thanked God for His Grace.
The journey continues, I have much work to do. But since that experience I KNOW that God is real and that His Spirit resides in me.
Loneliness is a power that we possess to give or take away forever. -Yes, Starship TrooperMy Story