I am pleased that this post motivated you to register. welcome. sorry to hear whay you have been or going through. I am controlled by the darkerside of my personality.

I battle everyday to maintain control, but is so hard to resist the call to just give up and stop the fighting within myself. I have stopped and started the drugs as a result of the on going conflict and only go back when i become to sick to carry on.

I have resisted that call to give up now for three months... a record for me. I am on Truvada and Viramune.

I will try and keep taking the drugs, but i can make no promises even to myself. I have failed so many times

you dont see me. i am not really here. Its my fault.. all of it. I am to blame and no one else.