You just keep talking to us all here, we'll listen.
And don't push to hard to recover your memories, let them appear when they want. That way you'll have time to sort them out better.
You're gonna make it Broken, stay with it.

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you've imagined. As you simplify your life, the laws of the universe will be simpler.
Henry David Thoreau