Howdy PS guy,
I echo Dan 99's comments: a lot of my sexuality was heavily imprinted by my abuse: and I recreated it a lot in my 20s and 30s, as much as I tried to suppress it.
It also got in the way of developing healthy inimacy and affirming sexuality for me.
I'm in a totally different place today, having worked through a lot of these issues-that said, I got a flashback of my abuse this morning and instantly wanted to take it out sexually on another male. Using sex to express anger and revenge is part of the messed up way I think. Learning to use sex to express love and vulnerability and affirmation is my journey.
We have to take responsibility for what we're not responsible for.
�It doesn't matter where you've come from,
It matters where you go" Frank Turner