All I can say, is that I am greatly sorry that people have misused and abused you with the Bible.
There are alot of people whose Love and Faith in God is actually very shallow, and among them are those who haven't resolved there own abuse issues. I feel that many of these people have only heard about God and have not experienced the real and unforgettable love of this enemorous Being who is the very essence of Love, for He is Love. In all the demensions that we have need of.
Watch here for more of my Story, Peace be with you, one Catholic to Another.