I will not be changing my mind on this subject. I just wanted to say what my intentions are. I will not be taking anymore drugs.

Tomorrow will be my final visit. I believe that this will enable me to lead a somewhat "normal" life. I look at myself in the mirror and often wonder who is staring back at me. I see another person behind the eyes but cannot work out who it is.

I was talking to my friend yesterday about a lot of things and i kept seeing horrible images in my mind and i was too ashamed to talk about that part. i am not human.

you dont see me. i am not really here. Its my fault.. all of it. I am to blame and no one else.