Well......... i have restarted taking Truvada and viramune for now. I get another set of tests results on the 10th November - yeah three weeks away.

I guess with all the stopping and starting the virus will mutate and the drugs will be ineffective, but i do not care. This is what i want to happen. I hate the drugs, i hate all of it - even myself.

I have been unable to sleep. I keep waking up at different times.

you dont see me. i am not really here. Its my fault.. all of it. I am to blame and no one else.