I am sick at the though of the drugs. I am going to continue without them. and if i am wrong then i will fall on my own sword. Its only in the last year or so that i have started to get sick.

I do not want to be in a "HIV" only club, yeah i could date women who have the virus, but i do not want that. I believe the meds will kill me faster than the virus.

you dont see me. i am not really here. Its my fault.. all of it. I am to blame and no one else.