sometimes those who question their self worth and the point in living are the ones who love life the most. i know i do, yet there have been times i have considered thought and bouts of wishful thinking that entail the concept of erasing my exsitence, -not so much in a violent manner, but more along the lines of achieving absence. i commend you on your ability to share yourself with other, and should you know tat we all hope the best for you, your future recovery, and happiness in life. peace