hello everybody. I has been a long time since I initiated a post, but with all the news that we have heard re the Roman Catholic Church, and the poem posted yesterdy from another survivor named Rax. as to what happened and more importantly what it DID TO US. Guys, I'm "losing it" as the saying goes. FINALLY the Catholic Church is TRYING, as they say, to deal with what has been going on for 40 or 50 DECADES. Then I read the poem mentioned above, and I think about how my life has been SCREWED up, litterall and figuratively. I'm seeing my councelor today, but since yesterday was a "mess" for me, he did e-mail me and in his words, the messed up life may go on for 5 or 10 years or the rest of your life. But what I do NOT UNDERSTAMD. is how much are we as survivors supposed to deal with and have "thrown" at is??? I saw a mother openly crying on the NBC nightly news when she tried to say that the church is finally "opening" long years of abuse, and what it or may I say, "they" did to her son. When I started to "deal with the past, and how several people had messed me up, I was told it would now "get better." I can't speak for other people, but the problems have got just the opposite. When will or will it ever "get better." Bosishere