Hey guys,

Just wanted to let everyone know that since my stomach problems have completely cleared up I have truly gotten my mental crap together.

I am finally doing the things I used to do, I am progressing again. I am complete, a different person truly.

I don't worry about everything or what everyone thinks of me.
I don't try to help solve the worlds problems.
I don't have anxiety or depression.
I don't have an overwhelming urge to have sex.

I can summarize what took place to get me to this point.

I wrote my life story and published it, cathartic journaling, and it helped a lot.

I participated in professional counseling and really put forth all I had.

I continued to seek within and worked step by step to purged myself of any and all self defeating behaviors.

I forgave myself and others, mother, father, wife, etc.

I raised hell, got mad, cried, laughed and made my peace with God.

I finally surrendered my life to him and let him take the wheel.

I know that sounds like it happened yesterday but it took eleven years and I can safely say it was damn well worth it.

Most important things, in my opinion;

God, Therapy, admitting I had a problem that stemmed from the CSA, and forgiveness.

Thanks for listening,

P.S. I hope that this post does not offend, I just had to let it out. I am so very happy to feel, to feel joy and peace, to feel motivated to continue this life to its fullest.

Whatever It Takes, God