Just wanted to let everyone know that since my stomach problems have completely cleared up I have truly gotten my mental crap together.
I am finally doing the things I used to do, I am progressing again. I am complete, a different person truly.
I don't worry about everything or what everyone thinks of me.
I don't try to help solve the worlds problems.
I don't have anxiety or depression.
I don't have an overwhelming urge to have sex.
I can summarize what took place to get me to this point.
I wrote my life story and published it, cathartic journaling, and it helped a lot.
I participated in professional counseling and really put forth all I had.
I continued to seek within and worked step by step to purged myself of any and all self defeating behaviors.
I forgave myself and others, mother, father, wife, etc.
I raised hell, got mad, cried, laughed and made my peace with God.
I finally surrendered my life to him and let him take the wheel.
I know that sounds like it happened yesterday but it took eleven years and I can safely say it was damn well worth it.
Most important things, in my opinion;
God, Therapy, admitting I had a problem that stemmed from the CSA, and forgiveness.
Thanks for listening,
P.S. I hope that this post does not offend, I just had to let it out. I am so very happy to feel, to feel joy and peace, to feel motivated to continue this life to its fullest.