Traumatizing parents' fight at 3-4 yrs
Moved in with paternal step-grandmother 3-4
Moved in with maternal grandfather at 4-5
Groomed and Penetrated by "trusted" neighbor 6-7
Sexual touching by male family member 6-9
Returned to drunken parents and neglected 7-8
Returned to maternal grandfather 8-9
Lived with paternal grandmother and father 13
Put in home for neglected boys 13-16:
Attacked by student wrestler/rapist (he was unsuccessful)
Molested by assistant counselor 2 or 3 times
Inappropriate touching by security guard
Falsely accused by same security guard of sexual activity
Put in front of all high school and told that this "homosexuality" could not continue
No defense was allowed, not one word by me 16
Entered U.S. Navy (plenty of drugs ) 17
Hitchhiked across country (still plenty of drugs) 25-26
And during it all, feeling invisible
Convinced by psychiatrist that the 6-7 incident was rape 37
Sporadic work on recovery 37-61
Newly disclosed memory to deal with 61
Against all odds Im OK with all of it

I'm a freeman now, his authority's dead
no pain monger lies in my comfortable bed!