I got to the point where I absolutely dreaded this time of year.
2003 - had a breakdown mid December
2004 - had made a statement to the police in mid October & hadn't a clue how things were going to turn out. Anxious all the time.
2005 - had a court date set for the January of 2006, so was constantly worrying about that
2006 - court case was over, but my Brother in Law had surgery for cancer in December - that's where I go Christmas Day.
2007 - Brother in Laws cancer is back & he goes in for another operation this week.
I still try & enjoy Christmas all the same, even though it takes some effort.
I've got a new baby Goddaughter who is now 7 months old, and she has brought more light into my life.
Last Christmas, was the first after I'd been to court, and throughout the year, I had bought new toys (not too expensive)for under-privileged children. I took them to the local Salvation Army just before Christmas. I've just done the same again today. The thought of those kids receiving something good from a stranger on Cristmas Day makes me feel better. It lets them know that someone out here actually cares about them. I think we all know how important that is.
Best wishes ...Rik
*Never look down on anybody unless you're helping them up.
*I was seeking a way of expressing my anger - I found hope!
*There are many battles before the war is won! It can be won!