Welcome to Male Survivor and I hope you will find resources here that will help you in your recovery. Tom has already mentioned to you one of the most effective things going on the site - the Healing Circles he initiated. I would definitely suggest you give that a try. You don't have to speak up at first; just get used to the format first and try to participate when you feel more comfortable.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)