Thanks Larry - I know what you tell me, and I know that you are right.

It just kicks in sometimes, particularly when I see the alcoholic. Also when I think that the other 2 witnesses that came forward had been younger chidhoodfriends, and I feel like I let them down, even though they didn't blame me.

I also find it sort of hard to accept that I've actually achieved a decent career even though I have always had a low opinion of myself until the last few years.

I am still shocked at what happened to me as a young boy, but I am equally shocked that I've not done too bad. It's just trying to get the perspective right.

Best wishes ...Rik

*Never look down on anybody unless you're helping them up.
*I was seeking a way of expressing my anger - I found hope!
*There are many battles before the war is won! It can be won!