Even after over 4 years of dealing with my "abuse", I still can't really totally rectify it in my mind as abuse. I think my biggest hurdle in this is that I don't remember much well. I have a sense of what I believe happened but the only thing I'm pretty sure happened was **triggers possible** oral sex (him to me and me to him) and I do remember attempted anal sex (him to me) where he began and as soon as he started it was painful and I sprang across the bed. This happened between me and my older brother I was 13 and in 7th grade (was left back). He was 16 1/2 and a junior in high school. And I'm wondering if that is enough that regardless of if what I thought happened actually happened if it would be abuse based on the age difference alone.

"Being with people that understand you...Priceless"

"and i don't want the world to see me, cause i don't think that they'd understand"

"You don't know what love is...you just do as your told"

"My life has changed. What you take as a simple thing, is not so simple for me anymore"