What you're saying makes all the sense in the world. Think of what you're doing as being similar somehow to working out a difficult puzzle. You can't get any pieces to fit, then suddenly you see where one goes and then all the others just seem to fall into place.

What I have found is that making progress with CSA issues can feel very uneven. I get frustrated because it seems like I'm not getting anywhere, but in fact what I'm doing is laying the foundations for something major that I just don't see yet. It sounds to me like you are having an experience like that.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)