You know this it's been going for 4 month as far as I know... I just can believed my marriage will be over without a warning or a fight ... i'm so tyred of being sad... but at the same time i love him so... its getting easier i dont cry as much.. i'm beginning to make new friends... people that dont know him so we dont talk about the past so by eliminating the past the pain goes away but also him and his memories.... on the present .. I think of him though out the day .. actually probably every hour but I'm able to put it away and in the future... I dont think about ot at all i no longer have dreams or hopes for tomorrow... only deal with the now and I'm able to survive ..

tonight it's hard but I guess it's ok... will go to bed and forget ..

Thank you and I will pray for all of us tonight!