Hi Jake,

I'm fairly new here too. But I can understand the guilt, shame, confusion, etc. As the other person said, abuse is like a train wreck, it only takes once to do a lot of damage. And a lot of us thought abusers were 'friends', since it seemed to minimize the harm (there's another post on that subject here too). Anyway, glad you're married, have a supportive wife, seem to be headed in the right direction.