Once again thanks, those who reads it who answers me so kindly. I am very happy, how generous people here, they - with me.

I regret about mine mixed ideas, and my desperate ideas several days ago. It - not I, as I - now. To have the some the reduced pain, it so is very useful how I feel from all rest right now.

I feel even wish to eat as meal of the real foodstuffs today! Probably I will ask the friend for a dinner.

Once again thanks, kind men.