I think it is wonderful that you have 9 months clean from the cutting. Congratulations!

I absolutely understand that need to cut and go to that place outside of yourself. Been there, done that, almost died in the process. However, I did survive by the grace of God.

The CSA issues in connection with any stressor = a reason to cut. You're right, it is time to move on. Good for you.

God bless,
John, The Music Man.