Heck, I'm a believer in God, but I never started growing and healing in my life till I got angry at God, I can't say he provided me all the answers to my anger, but through my anger I did find a sense of peace in it all that allows me to let all the anger, recrimination, etc. go.
That's my journey, and I don't really know what questions or answers will come my way in the future. My journey takes me one day, one step, one growth experience at at time. I don't expect anyone else to have the same journey I do, but for me I just decided to let God see to the greater things of the universe.
I believe there will come a time when the answers to my great questions in life will be answered. Till that time it's still one day at a time.
Lots of love,
"Life's journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out, shouting 'Holy Shit! What a ride!'" ~Hunter S. Thompson