For us the desire for intimacy is always there but sometimes our abilities don't live up to our desires. There are times when my partner feels blocked by his past experiences in ways that prevent us from sharing a physical intimacy. At other times my anger with him prevented me from feeling connected with him as well. Now that I have spent time reading here about CSA just understanding a bit more of how difficult it is for him to let me close to him makes those times more bearable. Also, when I feel neglected I have other friends who support me. Don't forget to take care of you.